The last time i blogged the older R was in kindergarten. Now the younger R is in kindergarten.
How the tides have turned.
Im still enjoying life but have much to complain about. So i decided to be "back".
Ive quieted down my life quite a bit. I only have two responsibilities outside the home. My board membership with the local town ******.
(Which, after being voted back in as vice chair for another year , I've been told i will never be asked to leave unless i die or move. hmm. which to choose?) And my involvement with church callings. I enjoy giving service for my HEavenly Father!! These are my only responsibilities outside the home which is okay with me. I feel like Im retired from volunteer work. Im possibly the only person who at age thirty-blakdfdkjagnfd years old who has volunteering as a professional career and chosen to RETIRE from volunteer work at the age of (discretionary note) rather than the opposite.
So this post is about friends.
I miss friendships. I miss enjoyable conversations over sweet pastries and diet coke. I miss talking to someone of the same sex about books, clothes, tv shows, etc. I miss talking period. Dont get me wrong im not a hermit by any means im just a mother with no time to make friends.
There are plenty of people i know but not really attracted to their personalities. I have met woman i could tolerate but they dont seem to fancy me. que sera sera.
point blank i miss my friends of ole. My bestie moved to Michigan and that was very sad. i miss her on a daily basis. i esp miss her when things are down and out for me, im sure she feels the same. I could call but i feel very uncomfortable on phone conversations. im better depicted in person. LOL. I dont want to lose connection with her. Im very good at doing that. People seem to think I dont care to keep in touch but thats really not the case. Im rather terrified of phone conversations- its silly really. Im very much a prime grade A INTROVERT! Ive lost such great friendships due to my lack of connectivity! theres no excuse i really should try harder. Therefore ive made a vow to myself to do just that.
i had a friend named Hazel whom i loved like a sister and i havent talked with her since I got married. It seems my union to someone else didnt sit right for her or my lack of availability to her single life put a huge strain on our friendship. I miss that gal dearly.
my friendship or lack of with Lilibeth was made evident when she so weirdly refused our visit on day. Much had led up to this point but it was weird how she refused to visit with us after our 5 hour trip to Gilbert Arizona. She was first a boss, 10 years my senior, then a dear friend. Many things like children, spouses, & graduate school stress made for the perfect formula of this break-up.
side note: i went to the store for 6 items, left with 15, and still forgot the darn trash bags.
My mother is suppose to be my friend regardless but seems to have lost that memo. over 38 years of her being my ma ive forgiven, ive shrugged off many things but the shenanigans never seem to run out. Planning a cultural healing meeting on the same weekend as my oldest 12th birthday! Really! and after I had talked with you about her attendance. REALLY!
Dads! well dads are suppose to be there for you always. well rather than enjoying retirement and being grandpa to my 4 yr old. He decides he needs a new journey. yes, thats right my 68 yr old father now has a son. I have a two year old brother. My 6 yr old daughter is already an AUNT.
In a time when i need two people the most to be my friend - they always seem to be self-absorbed as usual.
Remember when you have children be there for them always - you never know when theyre feeling blue.
