Week 27

This is a picture of me infront of the garage outside on a windy day at one week short of 7 months. My belly looks strange doesnt it? Im sittin really low. If I drop any lower Im sure I'll be peeing my pants by month 8. lol! This is me laughing at something silly or inappropriate that my husband said to me while trying to snap a mug of me. He doesnt like taking candid pictures of me like this for my blog,, he thinks its sooo vain! So any chance he gets to poke fun at me - he will!

I weigh 167 lbs. Too much according to my doctor. My thighs and tricep area are getting very cottage - cheesy! YUK!

(BTW: my neighbor found a snake still alive in her garage stuck to sticky trap - u know the ones for mice... gross just wanted to share that with you)

As of yesterday I failed my one hr glucose test and now have to go in tomorrow and drink more yucky solution and take the 3 hr test. Blood drawn at fasting prior to drink and then at hour 1, then hr 2, then hr 3! UGH! so hate it and so mad - at myself and my body. I hate this blodd sugar stuff - I hate it I just do !

So I have to get back on my strict diet - ive been very bad for almost 7 months and my body's in trouble again. So i went to BK and had my last Fast food sandwich until after the baby is born. I added a small fry and diet soda to top it off. Have to run or jog or walk or maybe even crawl on the treadmill for atleast one hr or push self to do 2 miles. Has to be done. Im tryin to drop down to 160 lbs or atleast 161 lbs before the Las Vegas Wedding on Oct 31st. Doms brother will get married at the Little Chapel of Flowers on the strip. So pretty - you all should google it and see how neat the chapel is. And im sure it costs a pretty penny too!

On my way out to BK I ran into my neighbor ms. dona and we had a nice long talk. She talked about her ailments and her hubbies and all of a sudden my woes didnt seem so bad. So I have to always remember that if I have it not to easy - theres always some else less fortunate than I and I should be grateful for the positive things in my life and not dwell on the bad! No more pity party for me. Oh and she educated me on how to make a quik eggplant lasagna. U know Ive never eaten it and never once concerned self with looking at a recipe and I didnt know u DONT use lasagna noodles. LOL ! too funny right. How sheltered am I? go figure. So now maybe Ill try to make one and see if I like it. BEing a meat eater I think I would prefer to throw in some meat somewhere in that dish.

Also I asked ms . donna to help me plan a halloween party for the lil lady and her munchkin frends for oct 24th. A lil shin dig b4 we set sail to vegas. I will use that cute song that ms toni posted on her recipe/cooking site classical whimsey.. something or other?! I will post the web address soon. When I get around to adding her to my links posting! Cute site - u all have to click on over to it.

So high on carbs and bad cholesterol fat I have to make my way over to rhys school and pick her up. Enjoy the picts and I will post more later and pray I pass my 3 hr test and dont need insulin shots. Blah!

My pity party - To Be Cont'd.....

Things I miss.....

I miss talking about and doing things not related to my hubby or my daughter. I love em but come one I dont have any personal time any more! I need to plan a trip for myself. I do nothing for myself and if I try to I end up feeling REALLY guilty! So I will vow to be more selfish with myself for the next ...... (thinking) .......hm................................. for the next month, NO, week! yea, lets say week and see how that goes. I'll keep you posted.

I miss...
old friends. my parents. my childhood with my brother. my grandmother before the dementia started. cooking for fun and not worrying about anyones food allergies or saying "yuk i dont like that". baking and eating the entire pan and not having to worry about blood sugar levels. having time to myself. going to the movies at the drop of a hat. buying expensive junk and not feeling guilty about it. dressing nice. listening to music loud in the car. listening to music appropriate for me but not my child, i.e. Ozzy, rob zombie, alike. crafting and not being bothered. being naive. having Dominick as a boyfriend. living in a clutter-free environment. coffee. Burger King Value meals. having my own money. having a job.

just a few things I can say i miss having - the list may get longer. This sparked my thinking when I jumped over to Ms. Toni's blogsite and saw her page of all the things that make her .... HER! She takes the time out to make time for herself and thats a good thing. The only thing I can think of right now that will instantly make me feel better is a whopper with cheese and fries and a large diet soda from Burgetr King! lol

i think its time for a girl trip away from my hubby.. one last hurrah before I have the baby. Ive kept the family so close for the past year and havent wanted to leave the comfort of my home nor my new home town. But I think i need to before I go crazy. I have a trip planned with the hubby and lil one on halloween in Vegas But thats for a wedding. Plus its not so exciting cuz the planning is so stressful. Dom wants to rent or buy a new vehicle for the trip cuz our lil putputs arent gonna make it. too small or too rough to drive in.! either way we have to get to Vegas - so I checked the prices on rentals and for me its toooo expensive. I would rather drive 7 hrs in a cramped 3 seater truck than spend 340.oo dollars on a rental. thats just ridiculous.

I think Im gonna cut this one short and run to burger king and then come back and finish my whining on another posting!!!! c ya will b back with a whopper jr in my belly!

Station Fire Update

Fire has lost 850 last nite (they went home or assigned to another Fire). Lost 200 personnel the nite before. The estimated containment date is Sept 15th and is 67 to 71% contained according to inciweb.com. The Navajo Hotshots are going to forego their 2 day mandatory R&R and stake out on the mountain for 4 days with MRE's. So I may not hear from my huby for another 4 days. Hoping they get cellservice in the area they'll be camping.

So fire plan is to mop-up as much as they can in the wilderness. After DC stakes out for 4 days he'll have 3 more days before their released. He's getting anxious just sitting around waiting for a detail on the Station Fire. If he's not crazy busy while on assignment he gets stircrazy bored and complains like you wont believe. So I hope they give 'em a task quick!

This fire has been the best since we became a wildland firefighting family in 2004. The IC ordered some great resources to pamper the firefighters. THey slept in AC bunks during the day, hot cooked meals morning, noon, and night. Shower trucks, laundry trucks, free merchandise from local food companies, i.e. MOnster beverage truck stopped in to hand out free cans... Myoplex truck stopped in and gave everyone free shakes! Too cool right. Oh and lets not forget the truck that had WiFi Computers accessible to firefighters to surf to their delight! DC didnt have to open his tent once since Aug 26th (the day they were committed to Station Fire). Neat-o right?!

More picts from the past

Look at these two chubby monkeys, Easter egg hunting! Werent they so adorable.

Daddy with his big girl at 4 days old!

My silly girl and her dressup outfit for Easter this year! Shes also trying to do a tap dance number with that dowel. Tee hee! Sloutched over shes saying, "MOOOOM!, im not ready...dont take a picture yet!" (Im always getting yelled at.)

picture of my lil one...girl, cuz theres another lil ONE on the way

This is a picture we took at the Aquarium in ABQ when we took uncle Thomas to airport. He visited for 2 weeks before returning to Maryland. The trip to aquarium was spontaneous and she loved it - although short, it entertained her for an hr and let her forget about missing daddy.

how am i feeling?

This morning after returning home after I dropped off Rhyan I walked into the house with not a clue. Prior to leaving for the elementary school I was starving. Rushed out the door I figured I would eat when i came home. So 15 minutes later I get into the kitchen and Im not hungry at all .... or is it that Im too sad to eat. Wasnt quite sure what to think then after I forced myself to get all the breakfast food out of fridge I realized that I wasnt rushed and I was cooking for myself. It was strange. The last time I cooked just for me was before in 2002. I cant remember the last time I didnt have to think about anyone else except myself. Im always taking care or entertaining or cooking for someone. If not for DOminick and Rhyan, for my mom her hubby or my dad. Strange feeling I had. So rather than eat at the kitchen table by myself I cooked my eggs and such and went straight to the office computer. I didnt feel so alone while at the computer reading the news and checking on Station fire updates. too funny, huh!

I suppose you mothers out there can relate.

Another hard fact Ive had to learn over the past few nights. NO matter how depressed and lonely I feel I cant let my kid see my despair. Its bad enough Im tryin to stay bubbly for her so she doesnt fall into a depressed stooper with her dad being gone for 7 days now.

Another thing I wanna complain about... Dominick has been gone for 7 days now, but he has 9 more days until his 14th day is up and they take mandatory leave. I was so bummed to hear. Dom said that the 14 day countdown starts the day they check in at the assignment COmmand post. So It took him 2 days to get to his assignment and they've been working for 5. So we have 9 more days of actual fireline time and then another 2 days to travel home. therefore, 11 days before we see my hubby! Not soon enough. Boo hoo!

So off to soccer practice we go. Finally forced myself to get an hr nap this afternoon so this evening Im feelin alil better.

P.S. I think Im gonna give the fire updates a rest for awhile becuz I think its stressing me out. Thats all I have on my mind. Im obsessed with all the updates on the internet on the news channels, the weather channel. cant be good for me I dont sleep inbetween his phone calls and thats not a good thing. Im too frantic to find out the next big story. So I need to take a break and get my nerves back to their natural state. lol talk with you all soon.