This summer has gone extremely fast. I havent had time to be consistent with Rhyans summer school lessons, like I would have wanted to.
Rhyan hasnt been to the park with me all summer. can you believe that. unreal right. well its true.
Life has been so unpredicatable and tiresome since June. Dom has been gone almost all summer it feels like. Its ridiculous really. I dont know how women send their husbands away for war or to work on an oil rig for months on end. I just dont know. They must have a strong support system helping them at home. Me? no.
I had to pay one of Dom's family members just to come over and help. Really I did. $10 an hour thats how really.
Initially I hired her for 2 hrs in the mornings so I could get to the gym. Well I dont know what made her decide 10 an hour but its toooo rich for my blood. She was hired for 2 hrs for the next 5 weeks, until school starts. But now Ive reduced the time to an hour a day. still at 10 an hr thats $50 a week. Just to get in some exercise and alone time. LEt me tell you. This morning I felt it was every bit necessary. as I walked around the neighborhood and had time to think in the silence. I figured whatha hay! Just for 60 minutes of that much happiness. Im taking full advantage of it.
Reagan still cries all day everyday. I cant take it. Im so tired. I would just like sometime when I dont have to hear crying. TOnight as I put her to sleep I could handle it anymore. I sat on the bed with my ears covered watching her. As she crawled ever so carfully in the dark toward my feet. Of course rhy was crying too. Yelling at me that I was the worse mom ever and how could I do that to her sister. That is let her cry while I watched her.
Dom has been gone only 3 days and we have 11 more to go. But that doesnt include the one day to de-mob (signout and get traveling papers) and the 2 days to drive home from south cali. Hes at the Bull Fire in KernValley, CA. My Birthday was yesterday and I spent it with a screaming kid in very hot weather.
If we could just stay home I know the baby would be ok. But I neglected the shopping for 2 weeks and decided to tackle that chore when DC got called out to California. Ugh! way to go rhonda. leaving it to the las minute. Plus I started a project in the front yard in early June and its still not complete. IT was a project that was only suppose to take 1 week to complete. But ive run into soo many problems its not even funny now. Ive resorted to hiring a handyman to finish was I started.
I tried to lay patio stones in the front yard. I pulled tons of decorative gravel from a 8 ft by 22 ft section. Moved 15 barrels of dirt to level. Purchased and moved (all bymyself) 178 patio stones from home depot. That each way 23 pounds. Loaded into our truck bymyself with two very grouchy kids on 4 separate trips over a 45 day span. Did most of the work outside while the baby sat in the stroller and rhy played in the mud. After days an days of reagan outside and breaking out in bloody eczema rashes in the heat and countless nat bites on her head. I surrendered to asking my neighbor to help out in the mornings.
Well she cant help but only on some days and even then there few and FAR between. See her hubby is not a nice man. He doesnt like her visiting with anyone outside the home when hes home. Hes a medical flight paramedic. SO he sits home waiting her calls. But he has these days called admin days that rquire him away from home at a set time. 8am to 5pm. Those days are when she can help. So she was watching the kids 730am to 12pm for about 3 weeks. Which basically worked out to 4 or 5 actual days over a 3 or 4 wk period. Not much time to get anything done. So even then I was still fumbling over what to do. I had to left feet and all thumbs trying to do this DIY project. Im sure all the drive bys laughed hysterically at all my mistakes.
So Dominick returned from his 17 day assignment promising to help. But got to involved with problems at work and didnt have time for my stuff. Then life got in the way. Other people needed help and we had to leave for days on end out of state. then we returned and monsoon hit. Its been raining everyday for almost a month now. Horrific. Dom finally installed our rain barrel which is great for the foundation but a complete eye sore. Yuk! super Ugly.But a relief for us and the neighbor. Sunday us and our 6 ft neighbor were outside scoooping buckets of rain water from the excavated yard in the rain. Inknow sounds so unreal, but honest im telling the truth. in the rain we had to unscrew the douwnspout and install the bucket. it was a mess. we were drenched. lol.
ill have to post pictures of my yard and show you all what a catastrophe it really is.
Can you count how many times in this post I used the word, "really" and "real". Its my word of the day.
So now Im waiting for my handyman to show and he promises to get the pation done in 4 hrs. But we'll have to see. I hope this guy doesnt flake on me. My life is crazy. For 3 months or maybe four months now, I havent been to sacrament at my church. Dumb really. But its all because Im on my own and even when dom is home he has decided to stop goin to churhc with us. which upsets the whole family structure. He says he will keep the baby at home to make things easier on me. But Church is for the whole family and I want to take the baby and ry even if its a hassle and takes us 5 hrs to get there. We make it for my primary lesson i have to teach and for the last hour but we cant make it on time to the first hour. which is the most important. ugh!
I think alot has to do with being chewed out by the bishop for being late. everyone in the congregation got it during a sermon months ago and its stuck in my head. If we do make it and were only 20 mins or 30 mins late we sit in my class and listen on the speaker system. Which is nice cuz reagan can crawl all over the room while we listen. But its still not the same. I love to sing in the chapel and in the classrm its just not the same. But we get to church one way or another. pray it gets better for us. :o)
luv you all have to get ot bed cuz the sitter is coming at 730a. and remember I only have her for an hour. lol
