Ive held back in my posts. Always.
But now Im have no time to sugarcoat anything I type. this is me, raw, from here on out! Dont like it? Dont read.
I seriously have no time to be sweet and pretend Im this happy, nice, caring person. Im really a very vile, depressed, cynical, pessimistic, married mother of 2.
Im going thru a midlife crisis. I didnt know what Ive been feeling until recently I devulged everything to my hubby. He was quite and listened. very nice. Too quite. When I asked him to respond to anything I was saying and help me out. Because I felt loss in my life. He replied that I was going through a midlife Crisis.
P.S. I try not to put Reagan in her carseat to sleep. In the pass 4 months, she has had these "episodes". Right before falling into a deep sleep, buckled in her carseat, suckling on the bottle, she begins to shake. It lasts for 5 seconds at the most. The first 2 I didnt think much at first but there continuing to happen. Its worrying me. I think they may be seizures. Ive been telling family but it seems they dont believe. The have always thought me to be a dramatic person and chalk this one up to another incident. But RHyan out of school, witnessed it today. I told her to watch and she then expressed concern to her dad. He then believed me. SO come Tuesday Im gonna bring it to my peds attention. Another thing to stress about!
I just pray she okay. and that theres nothing to be alarmed about.
